Idealized

Anger rambles inside me,

How could you not look up?

Is it too dumb or too insignificant that you didn't even care,

Is that what I am for you?

I’m sick of proving my worth,

But well,

I can't blame you for that,

Cause I never blame you at all,

Idealized

I have you idealized

I don’t know when,

I don’t know why and I know it isn’t quite right,

But I have you idealized.

Sadness rambles inside me,

Cause I want to spoil you,

Give you all the love I have,

But you don’t want,

You want hers,

And I can’t compete with that,

Cause she doesn’t have love for you,

But I do, I do, I do,

Because I have you idealized,

I have you idealized,

Even though you hurt my soul,

You made me believe in something arcane between us,

And you didn’t see the “If”.

That’s why I make you a Harana,

To courtship you for the last time,

Until I stop idealizing your hair, your mole, your hands, and our “If”.